I start my day out with a good breakfast and a big bowl of my favorite marijuana.
It seems that 2020 started out on a bad note and it just kept going downhill for me.
I now have no job and no prospects. I am sitting alone in my home since my girlfriend walked out on me for someone who had a job. I know I’m not alone in this, but that doesn’t make it any easier to handle. The only way I am able to get through this entire mess, is by being high most of the time. I wake up and have my weed, just so I can start the day. Throughout the day, I am able to smoke my marijuana and keep me moving. It is better to have some energy than to sit around depressed and do nothing but watch television. I’ve started doing some projects at home. I am doing some crafty things that friends think are really clever. When I don’t have someone to talk to, or my hands are idle, I find myself reaching for my marijuana. I even make edibles at home so I can have my marijuana even when I’m indulging in food. All I can say is that I hope this downward trend ends soon. I’m not sure how much more I can handle, nor can my friends. I just want to be able to walk up to someone and give them a hug. It would be nice to talk to someone without being six feet apart, or asking if they’ve tested negative lately. Until that day arrives, I’ll self medicate with marijuana and claim PTSD when it is over.