It’s sort of like being a bit of a baby or a toddler all over again.
I’m teaching myself just how to eat again.
This isn’t because I have some sort of memory loss or anything like that. But I have suffered with an eating disorder for more than a decade. With medical cannabis and the kind people at the cannabis dispensary, I’m clawing my way back to health. Body image and eating disorder went hand in hand for me. I was not anywhere near the images that I was constantly seeing. This led me to gradually fall into a state where I either starved myself or went through cycles of binging and purging. Therapy and medical cannabis are helping understand what a healthy appetite and diet are all about. But it hasn’t been easy. When you have instilled behaviors for so long it takes a lot of commitment and effort to retrain yourself. This is true for me. However, I just didn’t have a choice. I became so completely unhealthy that it landed me in the hospital. This is where it became evident I needed to make some big time life changes. Doing what I had to do in order to get a medical marijuana card was one of the first things I did once I had a therapist. She was onboard with the medical cannabis as part of my treatment. Having and appetite and then eating healthy food to satisfy that appetite was so foreign to me. Fortunately, the cannabis flower products helped me with my appetite. Then, I could respond with a new behavior of eating good healthy foods which nourish my body.