There really isn’t much of a middle ground for me when it comes to any sort of emotional response.
I tend to react or act with either great joy or great unhappiness.
This is just the way I’m built. It’s not a great way to live. After years and years of unsatisfying efforts, medical cannabis is showing me a light I didn’t think that I could ever see. Every medication I took for my condition had some form of drawback. Whether it was physical or emotional, I had to deal with something. The meds mostly kept me from manic states. But it came at a real cost. My ability to feel and experience my emotions authentically became non-existent. And the meds would eventually become less effective and I’d be switched to something else. That pill would have it’s own drawbacks that I had to then get accustomed to. But when medical marijuana legislation passed in my state, I started to get a bit of a cannabis education in order to understand if it was an option for me. The more I learned and attended cannabis events, the more I realized that this medical cannabis could be really effective for me. The fact that it was natural and virtually free of side effects was so key to my decision to try cannabis products. I’m still under a doctors care but I’m off the other meds and only using the medical cannabis. The results six months in are better than I could have dreamed. I feel like a whole person for the first time maybe ever. And I’m so very thankful for the fact that medical marijuana is legal in my state.