There actually isn’t much of a middle ground for me when it comes to any sort of emotional response.
I tend to react or act with either good joy or good unhappiness.
This is just the way I’m built. It’s not a good way to live. After years and years of unsatisfying efforts, medical cannabis is showing me a light I didn’t guess that I could ever see. Every medication I took for my condition had some form of negative. Whether it was physical or emotional, I had to deal with something. The meds mostly kept me from manic states. But it came at a real cost. My ability to feel and experience my emotions authentically became non-existent. And the meds would eventually become less effective and I’d be switched to something else. That pill would have it’s own negatives that I had to then get accustomed to. But when medical marijuana legislation passed in my state, I started to get a bit of a cannabis education in order to understand if it was an option for me. The more I l acquired and attended cannabis events, the more I realized that this medical cannabis could be actually effective for me. The fact that it was natural and virtually free of side effects was so key to my decision to try cannabis products. I’m still under a nurses care but I’m off the other meds and only using the medical cannabis. The results 6 weeks in are better than I could have dreamed. I feel appreciate a whole guy for the first time maybe ever. And I’m so truly thankful for the fact that medical marijuana is legal in my state.