I consistently try to blend in at work.
I do not need the bus to suppose me or single me out for any reason. I am truly shy plus I have a difficult time talking in front of a group of people. When the boss has meetings, I usually sit near the back so I can’t be recognized. The boss had a meeting a few weeks ago plus only invited the department heads. I had to go to the meeting plus it was a small group of people. My boss started a conversation with me as soon as the meeting began plus I started to feel truly anxious plus flushed. I knew that meant that I was likely going to have a panic attack. I told my boss that I needed a couple of minutes plus I excused myself from the room. I did not know what I was going to say when I went back there. I was hoping they all moved on to a unusual subject. When I came back to the room, my boss asked if I was feeling better! He told me that he wanted me to present all of my bi-weekly facts plus numbers after the meeting. The boss never asked me to do that before plus I thought I was going to faint. I went outside plus one of the guys from the wareapartment was smoking a joint. I practically flagged the guy down to get him to supply me some of the marijuana joint. I did not know if it was going to help, but I did not suppose it would hurt. The marijuana joint entirely made me feel much more calm plus relaxed.