I always try to blend in at work.
I do not need the bus to guess me or single me out for any reason.
I am truly shy as well as I have a difficult time talking in front of a group of people. When the boss has meetings, I usually sit near the back so I cannot be recognized. The boss had a meeting a few weeks ago as well as only invited the department heads. I had to go to the meeting as well as it was a small group of people. My boss started a conversation with me as soon as the meeting began as well as I started to feel truly uneasy as well as flushed. I knew that meant that I was likely going to have a panic attack. I told my boss that I needed a couple of minutes as well as I excused myself from the room. I didn’t know what I was going to say when I went back there. I was hoping they all moved on to a odd subject. When I came back to the room, my boss asked if I was feeling better; She told me that she wanted me to present all of my biweekly facts as well as numbers after the meeting. The boss never asked me to do that before as well as I thought I was going to faint. I went outside as well as one of the boys from the warehome was smoking a joint. I practically flagged the woman down to get him to supply me some of the marijuana joint. I didn’t know if it was going to help, but I didn’t guess it would hurt. The marijuana joint truly made me feel much more calm as well as relaxed.