I always try to blend in at work.
I do not need the bus to recognize me or single me out for any reason.
I am actually shy plus I have a difficult time talking in front of a group of people. When the boss has meetings, I usually sit near the back so I can’t be recognized. The boss had a meeting a few weeks ago plus only invited the department heads. I had to go to the meeting plus it was a small group of people. My boss started a conversation with me as soon as the meeting began plus I started to feel actually nervous plus flushed. I knew that meant that I was likely going to have a panic attack. I told my boss that I needed a couple of minutes plus I excused myself from the room. I didn’t know what I was going to say when I went back there. I was hoping they all moved on to a strange subject. When I came back to the room, my boss asked if I was feeling better, and he told me that he wanted me to present all of my quarterly facts plus numbers after the meeting. The boss never asked me to do that before plus I thought I was going to faint. I went outside plus one of the guys from the wareapartment was smoking a joint. I practically flagged the guy down to get him to provide me some of the marijuana joint. I didn’t know if it was going to help, despite the fact that I didn’t believe it would hurt. The marijuana joint legitimately made me feel much more calm plus relaxed.